A STORY OF MINE

Since a friend of mine wanted me to blog about my life...haha...let me tell a story of mine which I experience myself which dates back 2years ago..When reminiscence what had happen during that time,it really hurts my feeling every time flashback took its place in my fragment of memories..A memory which really painful and dreadful..My hope shattered merely as a glass because of the incident..And it occurs before my crucial form5 examination of SPM during 2007...

I love him very much..He is very adorable when he is small...He is cute,loving and excited to play with me every time he sees me as well as my brothers as well..Now he is no more..He has went back to afterlife..I missed him so much that I could hardly breathe, having difficulty in blinking,strong insomnia though I was extremely tired yesterday that I can't even utter myself a mild smile..What can be seen is just merely tears rolling down my cheeks...Why this happiness part of my life had to be taken away from me just like that?Why can't it stay longer with me?Why this incident had to take place until we had no choice to overcome it with our own will and desire?Why there had to be so many whys'?

Please come back to me KENJI...I love you..I still remember when Kenji is a small Rottweiler, he is very cute..And my father took him to YMCA which is situated after the roundabout on the way to SMI,my Alma mater...Kenji is taken there and my father trained him with other trainers as well..At YMCA,Kenji learn to associate with other dogs as well so that he could mingle with not just humans but other dogs as well...Haha...I remember he won a lot of medals during events at there which I witnessed at there during the hot sun..

He is a fierce dog during his adolescence stage of life...I guess this is the main factor which scared away the robbers or any bad fellow with bad intention to the neighbourhood of Taman Cahaya Tasek...Later as Suki,a Dalmatian dog is brought to Lau's family, Kenji could not accept the fact..He barks a great deal and simply dislike the existence of Suki..This is because Kenji did not associate with the other dogs at YMCA long time ago...So then Suki becomes a victim and her position is at stake..Therefore,we place Suki in the kennel so that Kenji will not had any slight opportunity to attack it..

However as time goes by,Kenji willing to accept Suki as part of the family...He grows fond on Suki but unfortunately Suki is castrated..Kenji loves to disturb Suki but Suki dislike being disturb by Kenji...Haha..Quite funny both of them...Happy memories still lies few years time as time crawls its ways up as depicted below...

Kenji looks strict when I was in Form1...Haha..That time my parents owns a Proton Satria and a Ford car as well...I love Kenji a lot...However when the time reaches end of 2006,time takes its course...Kenji had a severe bone predicament on his left,hind leg...He could barely move up to take simple steps..I really sad at the moment but please tell me what I can do to alleviate the pain in his hind leg...I couldn't...

As a matter of worst,he is at old age which means that there is low percentage of survival if surgery prevail its course..So we did not take the risk as we are afraid of not able to see him again after the surgery...So we cancel our earlier plan and day by day,Kenji is getting thinner and thinner..He has no appetite in savouring food and just that time,I didn't know what to do while busying with my studies for SPM which is my crucial examination...

Then around mid of May 2007,my dad suggested a painful decision which is the best way for all of us and Kenji as well..We had no choice which we had to embark on..I'm totally speechless at the moment...I just did not know what to do..Most of the time my parents will make decision which I find is the best way to most of the problem I encounter with but just that this time.....I'm very sad of the decision and the next day,a person come to my house and although Kenji is weak due to his severe bone condition,he still barks as loud as he could..

My parents just let that Indian in his mid to enter and the story of a lifetime begins..I just stood rooted to the ground whereby I could utter any words..As I'm a guy,I contained my feelings...I didn't want to cry in front of my brothers and parents..

The Indian guy wanted to give an anaesthetic to Kenji but Kenji is more than reluctant as if he knew his life is gonna end there..He almost bite the guy but my dad grab hold of him and said NO!And clutch Kenji's head while grab hold of the nerve to nerve situation while all of us just watch the drama which is about to take place in a few minutes time helplessly..

Seriously,after the anaesthetic inflicted on Kenji,within two minutes,Kenji still able to move but after that period of time,he is getting weaker and weaker..He turned around us and fall to the ground..While he fell to the ground,his eyes still stares at us..I knew that he didn't want to close his eyes because after he closes his eyes,he will not be able to see us again forever...I knew he tried his best for the few seconds but what must leave,had to leave..I touch his head before he goes...

Then after that incident,I walk my way into my house and weep...I just can't bottle up any of my saddness anymore..I'm painful to adhere to my parents decision of putting Kenji to sleep for the best of him so that he will not suffer anymore..I'm just so sad and cry and only after badminton,I managed to forget this incident so that I could concentrate on my course to score my best in SPM...

However, yesterday until today I recollected the most sad incident in my life which makes me so down when I think of it..I wished that I had no feelings so that I could not suffer such blow but I believe Kenji doesn't want to see my so sad in his afterlife..So I must smile...But how?Such happy memories really leave an indelible mark which will forever etched on my head...I love you KENJI!